Lookng Up From My Life

When I was a young boy I would spend countless evenings lying in the yard and looking up at the stars.  I would wonder what was there.  I would try and wrap my young mind around the concept that what I could see was only a fraction of something so vast and ever ending that my mere world was only a speck of light.  A light so faint that if it should be snuffed out tomorrow no one would be the wiser.  I have always grappled with the paradox of life on this planet and the existence of God.  In the limitless arena of space I refuse to believe that this is the only planet to entertain life.  As I grew older I began to pull away from the idea of God at all.  I mean how could it be that an almighty spirit would choose to populate only one planet among hundreds of billions of worlds?  Then to add insult to injury the creations that are placed on this sole inhabited planet are so flawed that they constantly teeter on the brink of extinction.  Over the years I have felt my grip on the concept of God loosen until finally I had basically given up.

Now as I look around I know that there is something more to it.   I was at the end of my rope and was debating on just giving up.  Last year I had an offer to work in Canada.  It was about a job.  Fast forward to one year later and an offer was made and on October two I went here for work.  Do I believe that God had a hand in this?  I don't really know.  I do know that the fact that I was offered a job good as my previous job it is miraculous.  The fact that I did not even apply for the position and it was offered to me and to me only makes me wonder.  Perhaps there is more to this than I will ever know.  I do thank God for this, because I do think that regardless of what my mind says there is more to life than living and dying.  Will I become an overly religious person?  No, but I will give more thought to it.  I think that sometimes you have to listen to the voices in your heart and not in your head.

It's funny.  When we are young we run around looking up at the sky.  When we are older when spend a lot of time looking down at the ground. Perhaps if we spent more time looking up and not down at our feet we would see the truth.  Perhaps if we looked up now and then we would see that God is really there.  Perhaps I will spend more time looking up at the stars.  Who knows what I might just see.